Bring it over here, Linda, I'll do it for you - it's a good distraction tactic!
I've just found out that the MacMillan Nurses are going in to see to my Dad tomorrow. He was supposed to start a new treatment yesterday, but his consultant says he is too sick to do it, and sent him home with more morphine and a care order to be implemented. Seems it is only a matter of time now
And no, we still aren't talking. I've not tried to make contact because I know my dad, he will think I am doing it now out of pity, and I don't want him to die thinking that I pity him, I'd much rather he knew that I love him, no matter what has happened. At the end of the day, he is my dad, and for the first 16 years of my life I was his shadow; right down to when he went to his KoSC meetings in the evening, I would go with him and sit in the car studying, because it meant I got him to myself for an extra hour or however long we were travelling for. Being the middle child of 5 can be quite tough when it comes to your parents having any time to devote to you.